the clutter in my head.

moved.

2010-12-30T18:18:00.003+08:00

Yes. Today is the day I officiate the move from blogspot to tumblr @ http://izziedizzie.tumblr.com/
:)

There are a couple of reasons why I did this.
1. I seem to have lost much inspiration writing.
2. My posts are mostly pictures.
3. Weird spammers that I ultimately dislike.

My blog will still be here. For reminiscing. :)

loves;

orchard road @ singapore

2010-12-30T12:08:00.002+08:00

Breathtaking lights and the amazing night view, and to top it off, great shopping deals and sales. And there I was, for the entire day; inhaling everything Singapore had to offer.

I was very amazed by the night lights and the Christmas decorations all along the crossroads of Orchard Road. Taking pictures was an unwritten must. :P

Everybody knows I love expanding my wardrobe. :)

Considering a total move to tumblr since I've lost much inspiration to write.

masterpieces.

2010-12-25T02:12:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

This Christmas, lets all spread the love and joy of the radiance of God around the world. :)

I'd love to blog about the amazing Christmas dinner I know I'm about to have, but everything's always better with pictures. I've just come back from church, and I'm off to Singapore in 3 hours babeh!

For now? Enjoy the finished pieces. :)

mr.tall and the christmas tree.

tiny bears decorating the tree.

Much love, Isabelle

santa and the elves.

2010-12-24T10:29:00.007+08:00

Every year, its been tradition whenever this festive holiday comes around, me and my sister mess up our entire room till it looks something like this...

..for the sake of making our aunts and friends Christmas presents! :D

Therefore, I shall present the head elf. My one and only sister. Her creative outlet runs deep, and she's pretty awesome. * If it wasn't obvious. I'm Santa. NYEH. :P * Just to fill out the team, the other elves that pop in from time to time : my cousin all the way from Australia and my daddy. :)

Together, for the past two days, we modeled figurines out of Sculpey clay and paper clay, wrapped the entire household's gifts, made gift tags and cards. But, I believe pictures would illustrate the work-in-progress more clearly.

mr.tall without shoes and the unpainted christmas tree.

disassembled and unbaked.

clay lettering.

candycanes, pepermints and more candycanes.

gift tags.

i spot a harry potter piggy, a mouse and a very adorable stocking.
unbaked.

Total time spent: approximately 12 hours
Total creativity unleashed: 110%
Total fun: countless

:)

Just popped the modeled clay into the oven. It won't be long now. :D

FIY: I've stretched my non-existent artistic skills so far for this. Seriously. Art and crafts are not exactly my prime forte. XD

reminisce.

2010-12-08T10:03:00.002+08:00

This has to be my favourite life saving picture.
The sister hoisting up a pretending-to-be-drowning me. :P

brilliant pieces.

2010-12-07T10:03:00.004+08:00

Since I hate flipping through Youtube for the stuff I love, I'm stuffing them into a single blogpost. How does that sound? Well, they are inspiring. :)

black and gold.

werewolf.

chasing cars.

They're all so fantasmic. :)

pokemon.

2010-12-06T11:51:00.002+08:00

@ Taylors Subang Dance Studio

This was one of the sole reasons how I got through my childhood.
Now I'm 17, I still love it just as much. :)

And no one can beat me when it comes to knowing evolutions.
I totally pwn.

Just to finish off?
My favourite Pokemon, which I never ever managed to own. :(

est.

2010-12-05T01:39:00.002+08:00

Because they made up my childhood.
I miss you guys so very much. :)

mom's away day.

2010-12-04T20:16:00.005+08:00

So I spent a half a Friday and half a Saturday at PD's Avillion Hotel. It was mum's Shell department's away day. And, unexpectedly, I did have fun. Mum has some amazing colleagues.

The first thing I did there was to look out of the hotel room. It was certainly a breathtaking view. And the smell of the sea is simply refreshing.

Right after we checked in, we sort of rushed to the beach. My sister and I anyway. This was while my mum and her colleagues + family members were playing games NEXT to the beach. Let's just say I couldn't wait to get onto the beach. Haven't been to the beach in ages, and I just love the feeling of the fine sand between my toes.

When everyone eventually got onto the beach, I joined them for Tug of War. See? I can be tough too! And me and my team totally won the challenge. ;) Yes, mum has strong colleagues too. :D

And being at the seaside, I couldn't resist not taking a photo of myself. I literally climbed up onto the railings and posed next to the lamp post. I guess I was lucky enough that none of the hotel staff chased me down. It would have been a pretty steep fall into the sea. :P

Soon after, everyone headed to the function room for dinner. Everyone had a blast kareoke-ing. (I really hope I spelt that correctly). Yes, I did sing. But of course, I shant upload ANY embarrassing pictures of myself to add to the ones already existing and circulating the internet.

Shall I finish this post off with group shots and smiles? :)

family. :D

smiles without dad. :(

over and out.

fedora.

2010-11-30T21:57:00.002+08:00

Yes, I have officially stolen Ian's fedora. So love it. It hides my ugly ugly hair. :D

taylor's subang.

2010-11-29T19:21:00.003+08:00

Yeah, just to be extremely clear, I know nothing about the place. I mean, Ian tried giving me directions, and I couldn't find my way from Starbucks to the CPU building. I'm that bad at directions. And at Chinese too. :P

First rehearsal for Broadway today. Finally feels so great to be back in my own genre. X)

rezaaaaa. ;)

2010-11-29T19:07:00.000+08:00

Miss this very exceptionally amazing monkey to bits. ;)

pony rides.

2010-11-25T13:49:00.002+08:00

Yes, today, I got up at 6.30 am especially for these bunch of adorable little kids. It didn't take a lot of effort to get me out of bed though. I was honestly excited to clean up the ponies before they arrived. Do I sound like a workaholic or what? X)

When I arrived, I spent half an hour bathing this fella right here, Quickstep . . . with a bucket of soap and water *pokes little green bucket behind Quickstep*. I believe I scrubbed him from head to tail. Man, I don't even clean myself up this well. And of course, after I was done, I think I might as well have taken a bath myself. I was soaked, but it was all in good fun. :D

At 9.30 the little kids came along, and suddenly I felt so tall. That feeling doesn't come everyday. No in fact, it barely comes along, unless I'm in 5 inch heels. I had fun hoisting up the little kids onto the ponies and bringing them in a huge circle around the paddock. Everybody wanted a piece of Danny. The ponies totally got pampered today, with their share of carrots and apples and the sort.

(His mane looks so pretty here. I brushed him well. :P )

And now, after a tiring morning, I'm sitting at home, listening to Glee songs from next week's episode. It's gonna be amazing, I can just tell.

hey soul sister.

doodle me.

2010-11-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

No. Definitely not an artist. Or close to one with artistic skills. But I do like doodling. :)

A very clean representation of my room right now. :)
I tried making it messy, but even my sister said it was too neat.

Did this on the plane ride back from Singapore. Teehee.

post a levels.

2010-11-21T14:04:00.007+08:00

I don't really have much on my to-do list before I *hopefully* leave to UK for my university studies. At the moment, its pretty short. :)

To catch up with everyone I haven't seen in ages cause of my studies. I feel terrible for not bothering to keep in touch with some of my best friends, sometimes even forgetting their birthdays. Basically, spend as much time as possible with the people I love.
To dabble in as much dance events as possible before I leave. Trying some contemporary dance classes is pretty much at the top of my list.
Learn how to cook, because I don't feel like burning down a building, especially not in central London.
Start preparing for the future. Because I don't want to be scraping through my university classes, and I actually do want to do well. I'm going to take as many opportunities for attachments as I can.

You can tell I'm dying to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
It somehow feels like I have so much time, yet no time at all.

*returns to sifting huge piles of A level material*

RVC Exhibition @ Singapore

2010-11-20T23:25:00.001+08:00

I’m proud to say I have utilized the public transport in Singapore! Holding my cousin’s Ezlink card in my hand and tagging them as I went onto the bus and as I entered the MRT station, I must say it felt like a blast from the future. Singaporeans are definitely very efficient.

Still, I did walk 20 minutes from the Orchard MRT Station to Trader’s Hotel near Tanglin Mall. That walk, was not an easy walk. Thankfully I had the sensibility to wear my flats and pack my heels in my bag to change later on. The Trader’s Hotel itself was definitely impressive. I even had the opportunity to meet an Edinburgh vet graduate of 1951! To think the people you would meet being shocked by an automatic opening door. Yes, I’m officially impressed by the technology in Singapore.

The little exhibition was catered specifically for 12 of us students who were given conditional offers ( no interviews necessary *wide grin* ), I’m guessing in South East Asia. The purpose of the exhibition? To introduce us to university life at the Royal Vet College. We were each given a little welcome pack, complete with an official copy of our offer letters, complete with the RVC headnote. The course structure was so carefully thought out, up to date with the required aspects needed for a modern veterinarian. Despite the hefty costs of living in central London, it was definitely made out to be a great place. I was definitely sold.

This followed with a meet and greet session outside the function room. I admit, the food was spectacularly delicious. From dim sum to western food, I’m pretty sure they covered it all. This was when I got to know more about the lecturers and the other 11 potential students at RVC. We exchanged all sorts of animal stories, and had a really good laugh. Although none of us looked like the stereotypical vet student, I must say, they were extremely brilliant.

Definitely looking forward to uni life. ;)

the best dancers.

2010-10-07T15:46:00.003+08:00

It looks like my blog has been revived lately, thanks to my new phone, which has a considerably good camera that snaps pictures of my life that gives me the urge to blog. Anyway, this was actually my ballet homework; to figure out what the quote, "The best dancers are not forcing themselves, they are indulging themselves" meant. I actually started thinking about it, and well, here's my homework. Hope you don't get too bored by reading it. :)

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I spend an incredible amount of time curled up in a sofa watching dance video after dance video on Youtube. Many a time, as I watch captivating routines, I question myself; “What makes a dancer great?” And that very question has many answers. Amazing stage presence, breathtaking performing qualities, beautiful lines, flawless technique - just to name a major few. Yes, a dancer is great because of all these qualities they possess, but I rarely question why. Why is it a great dancer has all these qualities?

When I finally came down to it, after watching numerous interviews, I finally stuck to a single answer. Its not because there’s someone shoving them into dance class every week as a form of exercise. Its not because they have an excellent teacher that forces them to dance in a specific way. The best dancers have a passion for dance. Its because these dancers want to dance and it is something they love to do. These are those with drive and dedication, that are completely involved in every step they take, with thought put into each one. These dancers don’t just “dance the steps” because they have to.

Some dancers have natural talents such as coordination, musicality, flexibility and physique. I do believe that some dancers are naturally gifted. However, I also believe the best dancers are not just those born with natural talents. The best are really those whom strive to be better, seeking improvement voluntarily every time they take a simple jump or an extension. Natural talents mean and contribute nothing without self-driven determination. The best dancers are intelligent; seeing and understanding what truly needs to be done, and coordinating their muscles in that manner to improve in everything they do. They are willing to learn and make changes (for the better!) that does, no matter how small, lead to improvements.

And it is with this mindset, all the qualities of a great dancer are developed. To me, the best dancers aren’t those who have someone to continuously spew out instructions that they follow blindly, simply because it helps them along the way.

The best dancers are not forcing themselves, they are indulging themselves.

LoFro; SYTYCD S6; Amazing.

scribble me.

2010-10-07T09:21:00.002+08:00

I've just discovered this drawing programme on my phone, called Scribble. I did these while waiting for the van to arrive at UPM. Yes, be ready to mock my non-existant artistic skills. ;)

I like the first one best. :)

equine park stables.

2010-10-01T17:15:00.010+08:00

*I edited this post over a period of time from Thursday to Sunday*

This is a summary of my entire voluntary work placement at some stables at Equine Park, Akademi Ekuestrian Diraja Selangor. And thankfully all the horses I've worked with are all good tempered and haven't kicked me in the face, although they're bitten my clothes and nudged me really hard once in a while. :)

I went into the stables with one major goal, to learn how to handle horses. I began work at about 9.30 am each morning. My job? To take care of all the vet cases. Minor problems that have already been diagnosed by the vet, but I handle the ongoing treatments. *Makes me sound so important. :P*

On my first day, my supervisor who allowed me to volunteer here, Ms. Gerry, showed me the basics, from the cleaning of stalls, to the leading and cleaning of horses, to tips and tricks to handling them. This is her showing me how to lead out Cricket, one of the bad tempered ponies at the stable. She's amazing with horses, there's never a horse I've seen she can't handle. :D

She owns her own gray horse there as well, completely well-behaved all the time. Before I left on my last day there, she had the opportunity to show me some bursting cancerous cells on her horse's tail. Almost 99% of gray horses develop a skin cancer called melanoma, either under the tail, or inside the sheath. The tumours are the bumps at the bottom of the tail.

And this, is some face cream she applied to the bottom of his softening hoof. No, its not because its hoof has the same texture as human skin. Its high in zinc oxide, a pretty good drying agent - just the common remedy to dry up and harden the hoof.

***

Anyway, the first thing I did every morning was to go to Danny's stall. A really good tempered, easy to handle pony. :) It's sad he's a little unkept because of the hot and humid Malaysian weather.

Of course, being me, I couldn't leave a little pony neglected. I think I spent half an hour brushing, shampooing, combing, applying oil and removing dandruff from his mane everyday. His mane is very much like my hair, super thick, dry and frizzy, except, I don't have dandruff. :P And here's his cleaned/oiled mane. :)

And then came the cleaning of his sheath and the application of iodine based antiseptic. His sheath was so terribly injured and inflamed. That probably came from biting or kicking it; thanks to the houseflies that settled there, irritating him. I repeated the same procedure with 3 other horses with the same problem. The stablemen were really nice, thank goodness I can speak a bit of Bahasa Melayu.

Working with horses can be summed up into one word: challenging. Being alert is a mandatory precautionary attribute because its dangerous - its easy for them to step on you, or whip you with their tail, or kick you. But its extremely fun too, and the little things that they do to acknowledge you are just so adorable. Of course not all horses are the same, but the thought of relieving them of their misery and pain makes the job all the better!

Until then,
Izzie. :)

september.

2010-09-27T11:13:00.003+08:00

It's the last week of September, and it sucks - because I'm sick. I can still move about though, but my flu is messing with my sense of balance, strength and giving my splitting headaches/body aches.

I feel very underaccomplished at the moment, I'm barely done with any of my university stuff, my work experience is half hanging in midair, my A2 is going to be a total mess since I haven't studied and all I feel like doing is spending time at farms and around animals (really not possible since I'm sick now) . What bad timing for everything. :(

I'm feeling a bit dozy now, so I'm going to tuck into bed with my Physics textbook and hopefully absorb some information about MRI machines.

What I want right now is anything proper I can use to scribble my work experience stuff in. It looks odd in a notebook with 4 other subjects. And I'm not liking it.

freshly baked.

2010-09-26T23:06:00.007+08:00

Let's just say that I'm not exactly a fantastic baker/cook. Okay, scratch that. I have cooking skills that are relatively zero. Anyhow, I decided today, using my non-existent baking skills - to bake a cake for my mom's birthday at church.

I am utterly pathetic at baking. At 4 in the evening, my sister and I grabbed a small cookbook, and looked for the shortest recipe. We settled on an upside down pineapple cake. Okay, so its not made from an actual upside down pineapple, but its named after the fact that the toppings are placed into the baking tin first, and then after it is baked; the cake is flipped the other way for the finished cake.

Being the helpless-in-the-kitchen person I am, I weighed out the ingredients, and helped my sister, while she did most of the creaming and mixing. I made the pineapple slice designs though! And I substituted grapes for cherries since we didn't have cherries. It wasn't the smartest idea though, because the grapes shriveled up during the baking process.

I also did the honors of shoving the cake inside the oven for baking. It looked like the inside of a volcano. I had no idea cakes bubbled. Maybe it was the self raising flour? I would never know. D:

Anyhow, after 45 minutes, here's the final product! It looks a bit like a big round cookie. If only if it was a wee bit thicker, it would've been a proper cake. Still very adorable if you ask me. :) But I'm biased, so there!

The main point was, it tasted good! So yes, I believe I do have cooking skills, maybe at level 0.5 at the moment. For now anyway. :)

Til the next time!
Izzie

of alginate beads and sperm cells.

2010-08-19T20:09:00.003+08:00

And this is a BioScience class tradition.
Sperm cells.

Alginate + Calcium Chloride + Bromothymol Blue // Red Food Dye
*+ yeast for the yellow

Yes, we had to smuggle in some food dye. >:D
But it was all good. Good fun.

It won't really make sense until you've tried it yourself. These squishy bead things are alot more fun than they look in these pictures. :)

the attack of the sperm.

..and that's a super long one.

..and a single sperm attack. D:

a tiny red tadpole? :)

Those are the best shots I guess. Taken using my SonyEricsson phone. It's focusing ability isn't bad isn't it?

And if you really can't get enough, the full album here.

'Til your turn;

snaps.

2010-08-16T18:03:00.004+08:00

Here's just some random shots from my phone. Really random. :)

a journal entry.

visit to the durian farm.

my online results access slip.

famous amos.

books from the subang library.

I've finally gotten my results from my AS exams, and I'm glad I did well. I didn't expect to do that well though, although I definitely wanted to. :P

Now, full speed ahead for A2!

victor + charlie + me.

2010-08-04T10:11:00.002+08:00

Oh the nonsense both of us spewed getting high over Charlie at 12 in the morning. ;)

mad charity show @ MOS.

2010-08-01T17:15:00.004+08:00

It was honestly an amazing experience altogether. The preparations leading up to the night itself was rewarding, and amazing. I auditioned with Muhaimin by submitting a video of ourselves dancing online, and by some luck, we were both selected for the show. It was a rare opportunity to work with amazing choreographers Tze Hong and Miss Judimar for our performance.

We rehearsed for three weeks, and I've met so many new friends in the process. And it was my first time doing hiphop, so that was definitely something that was challenging. I'm pretty sure I was terrible at it, but I managed nonetheless. ;) In any case, I loved it.

I've performed many times before, but this time, it was different. I was so extremely nervous before hitting the dance floor. I'm just so glad that we hyped the crowd up with our performance, and that everyone liked it; even if I messed up in between. :P

And, the best part is, it's all for charity. It's great that I get to do what I love while contributing to society.

And here's a picture roll. All courtesy of Muhaimin. :)

see, speak, hear no evil + trisha. :P

HAHA. Teh freebra. ;)

I look funneh.

ian, jane, yewwing, trisha and me. :)

me and the sexy lady. ;)

our sad/angry picture. LOL.

the disco ball.

And this, is all of us. :)

I miss everyone already. And I'll remember every second of it. ;)

age old mystery solved?

2010-07-19T20:19:00.003+08:00

So, people, you CANNOT use the riddle, "Which came first? The chicken or the egg?" and puzzle someone anymore. Because, now, its been proven that the chicken came first before the egg. :D

According to this article here, the egg shell is formed using a protein from the chicken as a catalyst to convert the calcium carbonate to calcite crystals to make up the shell of the eggs. And so, just like that, life gets a little less complicated.

And well, from the Bible, we all know that God created animals. I guess if we all stopped trying to explain everything with science, we can save a few millions and still have the answers we need. :P

mad charity show.

2010-07-12T18:04:00.003+08:00

So for the first time ever, I'll be doing hiphop numbers on stage. Oh what the hell, its the first time I'm attempting hip-hop ever. The only thing I've done that comes close to hip hop? Grooving and dancing at parties/clubs/proms. Which is a stretch, cause obviously I have no experience at all in anything street. But, I'll totally try, and make it as natural as possible. Hehehe.

It's going to be a dance show, full of all different styles from sultry salsa to flowing contemporary to hard hitting hip hop. A tale of a girl with determination, skill and passion.

So come support the event? :) It's definitely one of the first to raise money through dancing, and it is geared up to be a promising night.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=130761650290360

http://madcharityshow2010.wordpress.com/

:)

smile.

2010-07-10T22:04:00.004+08:00

lies.

2010-07-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

Lies. I hate them, and yet, I believe I’m the best at telling them. Throughout my life, I’ve lived with so much regret. Lying as always been a natural reflex, as much as I hated it. Very few people know about who I really am, my personality, achievements and history. Why? I’ve lied my way through. Maybe not lied as per say, but withheld information that would’ve made the truth clear.

Sure at first I’ll feel good about lying, that I managed to make someone laugh, prevent someone from further agony or impress someone. But this feeling never lasts. Some lies don’t even have benefits, but yet I do it anyway. As soon as complications arise, I lie even more to cover up my original lie in hopes of the truth never being uncovered. And then when I’m finally caught red handed, I creep into a little hole full of regret, anger and self-pity and pretend nothing else exists.

I lose something every time I lie. A friend, someone’s trust - I lose myself.

Sometimes I look back and think, who am I really? Am I fictitious? Am I someone who only cares for herself? Am I someone that simply pretends to be selfless? Or, am I what people make me out to be?

I hate lying. I hate lying to myself. I hate lying to my friends. But yet, I can’t stop myself from doing so completely. My reasons are not sound, but my gut pushes me on to do the evil deed anyway. And I must always face the consequences.

But for the people I trust, I’d do that.

the third semester.

2010-06-30T19:46:00.005+08:00

So, its finally the final six month stretch of my entire A Levels course. The most hectic stretch, and the most important. And, to tell the truth, I'm afraid. I'm so afraid. What if nothing ends up the way I want it to be? Its every night for the past two nights that I feel like curling up in my bed and crying because I fear of what might happen.

The university applications. Work experience. Jog for Hope. Editorial board. IELTS. UKCAT. UNDP Dance. Ballet exams. Modern exams. A2.

There's just so much to be done, and no time to do them. And somehow only you can calm me down.

Seeing you and spending time with you makes me happy, it makes me smile genuinely even if its for a brief period of time. I know I'm mean most of the times, but I like it when you sulk and make me apologize profusely. :) I like all the times I spend with you, especially after a long day of studying. I wish you'd know how much you meant to me.

Gosh, its so hard to blog when all I think about is you. :P

grad ball commitee dinner.

2010-06-24T08:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, the last bit to everything, wrapping up grad ball. :)

Dinner @ Alexis, BSC
+
Dessert @ Tutti Frutti

I went of course, and I must say, I had a good time. Miss D was present too. :) So I shall not bore you with long essays and blogposts, and just move on to the pictures. All courtesy of Arthur Chia.

Ah. Nice pictures. :)
I must say, organising and planning the event was fun, and it was a pleasure working with all of you. :D

grad ball + toy story.

2010-06-23T19:30:00.004+08:00

I’m glad that Grad Ball is finally over, I mean, the journey there was stressful and tough, and I’m glad it turned out pretty well too.

Me and Youlin had our hair and make up done at 4ish, and the make up artist really did go all out on me with the make up. She even shaved my eyebrows, so my eyebrows look funky now. Lol. First time that’s ever happened to me. And when I looked at myself in the mirror, it really didn’t feel that I was looking at myself. I looked like a girl, like for once. Like, super dolled up.
I laughed. :P

I definitely had fun that night, despite the back pains. And I guess, as usual, dancing was the best part of it. I had the opportunity to usher the VIPs into the hall, dancing in front of them to Youlin’s violin piece, before going into a tango-ish sequence with Azril. I fumbled a good bit, but I’m glad everyone liked it. :)

The rest of the night went by well too. I sat with Chung Wye, Victor, Choon Lim, Zhen Howe and the gang, and our table was super happening. LOL. It was just a good night, something I can’t really put into words. The main point is, I did have fun. Especially the dancing afterwards. :P I stayed over at a friend’s place, my friend was totally accommodating. Although I couldn’t really sleep well cause my back was hurting, I was pleasantly surprised that night.

Okay, so, here’s a picture roll. :)

group shot. :D kah mun's such a hottie.

slow dancing. i was laughing. lol. :P

performance with azril. :)

my intake people + the graduating intake people.

ushering of VIPs.

me and mr tcsh. I will be taller than him one day. XP

me and yan leng, the awesome photographer. :)

me and kah mun. :D

me and youlin. :) :) :)

pay close attention to the background. :P

me, chung wye and kah mun. teehee.

And after that, I had an even better time. Quality time with Kah Mun + someone. :D

  I woke up nice and early at 7 the next morning. I had a pretty good morning despite that anyway. :) :) And after that, I left with Chung Wye and Victor to 1 U to eat lunch and watch Toy Story 3. Toy Story 3 was amazing, even if we were packed into a whole theater of little kids. I nearly cried, it was touching in the end. :( But the mood was totally ruined with the “Oh, Romeo, Romeo” bit at the ending credits. And then after chilling at Coffee Beans for a while, I went back home. I had a good two days.

It was awesome. :D

gladioli.

2010-06-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to my current favourite flower, the gladiolus.
Yes, after visiting the florist today, I've totally seen all the flowers and all the possible flowers for my future wedding, or something like that. :P

I know I'm completely weird and insane, but hey, that's Isabelle for you. :D

I love the colours that the gladiolus comes in.

And this is just going to be a picture roll of the best shots. :)

And this, is just so heartwarming. :D

Love the purples. :)

*I opened a dozen tabs of pictures to choose my favourite ones.

I love them. :P
Okay, Isabelle's not mad, just a bit loony.
(This is one of the only times my girly side shows. XP Appreciate it.)

the oil spill.

2010-06-08T08:58:00.002+08:00

Honestly, I am so sickened by the oil spill damage on the wildlife at the Gulf of Mexico. I know BP is trying to rectify it, but there has to be a price to pay for this.

It's sad how oil to us will be like another mucky coat on our skin, but to them, its deadly, lethal because they can't breathe, can't swim and can't fly. It's depressing really, and its sad how it's damaging to the wildlife and not us. If given a day in their shoes, I might just commit suicide being human to know what pain we caused them. :(

And I know rambling here won't make a difference, but I hope and pray really hard this episode will all be over in a while. Please.

dance stills.

2010-06-05T09:12:00.004+08:00

This is a break from the emo-ness.
This makes me happy. :D

All courtesy of my sister and the Tanarata dance studios.

of better and worse.

2010-06-04T18:41:00.004+08:00

Me messing in the Tanarata studios.

The past few days have been extremely terrible. I really thought I could keep my composure, at least for the rest of the week so I could break down during the weekends when my parents and sister leave to Teluk Intan and I'm alone. But I guess that didn't work out. I can't tell if its the stress, of the messing up of exams, or my education or the fact that I'm completely confused about you.

But really, I thank goodness that I have friends that are ever ready to help me all the time. You guys know who you are. And I'm so grateful because even if I barely know some of you guys at all, you still jump in to help me when I need it the most.

I think Thursday was the day I really dipped. I couldn't keep smiling, couldn't keep pretending everything was okay, and I just couldn't hold everything in myself. And there and then, in front of the VERY person I didn't want to be seen that way, I just broke down into sobs. And even then, it took so much effort to retain the tears that just wouldn't stop. I tried, I did try to be brave and ignore the truth, but I couldn't. It was just way too hard.

And that wasn't it. It happened twice, in the same hour. Suddenly, I just felt myself crashing down, dying inside. I'd finally given in to everything then. My head and heart were hurting. And it did get a bit better, until I left college and everything seemed to sink in again. Even my immune system decided to fail alongside my body. But I guess I did a good job in pretending I was fine for the rest of the day.

It didn't get much better on Friday. The fact I lacked food and sleep just tore me down. I started off smiling and studying normally though. Although that didn't last for more than two hours because I was completely in tears then. Again. I didn't understand why everything was happening to me. I did try to stop crying. I just wished it worked. I wished I could show everyone who was there with me that their presence did help me. It did. But I just couldn't.

I managed smiling though. Once in a while. And even after that, I wasn't much better. I slept because I was in so much pain and I couldn't study. And all the time I wished for someone to be there to hug me until the pain went away. Not that I was brave enough to ask for a hug.

LOL. These emo posts must stop. But I never did want to tell everyone the full story, because I didn't want anyone else to be bogged down with my crap, and that I couldn't ever bring myself to. Sometimes things are just best left to me. But now, at least after blogging, I feel more at ease knowing I've expressed myself here. At least. :)

a good paper.

2010-06-01T08:33:00.001+08:00

Today is the first day I came out of the exam hall and felt like I actually everything right. I feel kinda happy with myself, and its good that I have less a paper to fear now. :) Chemistry paper 2 was indeed something I feared, and I’m glad its over. Other than the stupid careless mistake of the catalyst for a reaction, I think everything else was right. Thank goodness I did the GCE past years and did the organic chemistry bit in the paper today. :P Thumbs up for being a nerd!

And now, I’m at home, listening to a really mixed playlist of my current favourite stuff. I don’t think I’ll be sick of these songs any time soon. :P

Beautiful Day - Lee DeWyze
Falling Slowly - Crystal Bowersox and Lee DeWyze
Halfway Gone - Lifehouse
If You’re Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield
You’ll Always Be My Baby - David Cook
Beth - Glee Cast
Airplanes (Cover) - Cathy Nyugen
Dream with My Eyes Open - Alex Lambert
Bad Romance - Glee Cast
All In - Lifehouse
Every Breath - Boyce Avenue
In Your Skin - Lifehouse

Okay, so there is a reason why its mostly full of Lifehouse songs. I just downloaded their Smoke & Mirrors album from a webbie online. And I’m loving it. No doubt Lifehouse is one of my favourite bands next to Coldplay, Paramore and AAR.

And oh! There’s this thing I tried photoshopping a while back, which I just found today. :P It’s a black cat. No reference, which probably explains why its a bit cacat. I shall finish this one day. I promise. :D

And yet, under this smile masked on my face, deep inside me, I’m still confused and hurting. I think the need for me to punch someone is just so strong, and I can’t help but feel like giving up. Honestly, I don’t even know what is holding me back from giving up, but I know that as much as I try to give up, a small part of me doesn’t want to let go. And that’s what bugs me, because it pains me to be like this; and yet, there is NOTHING I can do about it but wait.

*My internet was not working yesterday, which explains why this blogpost was only posted now. :P

regret.

2010-05-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

There has not been a single paper that has not made me freeze up during the exam itself. Today was no exception. Biology paper 1. The bar was just raised again. Challenging, just what you’d expect from CIE. I feel really dumb, and I honestly feel like kicking myself for not preparing more by doing AQA. (That I’ll definitely do for Chem now.) And I tell myself I want A*s. I wish. From today til Monday, I’ll be doing Chem like a total nerd, no distractions. I don’t want any.

Aside that, there’s still uni applications to sort out, which I haven’t been succeeding in doing. I have tried to write my personal statement, but I end up staring at a blank page in dismay. I have yet to find out about the Edinburgh award. I have yet to apply for UKCAT and IELTS. Must do soooon! And I just recall I’m attending a Chemistry contest and the Australian Math Competition in July and August. I hope I do well. :D

On the other hand, a Gaga Glee episode made me really happy. :) That, and latin dance class. Finally something fun like the samba, not like the rest weren’t fun. :P This is just challenging. I like challenge. :) Heeh. Ismail, you have no idea what you’re missing out on. That’s for ditching me during the exams. :P I’m hoping this will totally come in handy in casual dancing in dance clubs or anything of that sort. Haha. One day, latin class needs to recorded. For the fun of it.

*This is totally random, but I like guys that dance. It’s just such a turn on. Lmao. Mock me.*

I’ll just try my best to put everything behind me, and do the papers ahead of me the best I can. I just wish the papers would be more do-able. Ugh.

A string of continuous study will do me much good. I’ve told myself I’d do it, and I will. :) Starting tomorrow, no more complaining and regretting. YOU, need to get out of my head so I can concentrate. Lol. Then again, I can’t concentrate either way. Oh wells.

Nerd out! :D

*Must choreograph solo for UNDP audition!

of bad days, or weeks.

2010-05-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

I feel very troubled. Tears are welling up in my throat now. Its been a rather bad week I guess, but I’m just glad there were people to lift my spirits all the time. I swear, I don’t deserve anything that you guys have been doing for me. Sigh. I was happy today during college and all, but now, I just feel like crap. I guess I deserve it anyway. :)

I always mess up everything and I’m sorry I do.

I hate shoving my problems onto anyone. There’s where the blog comes in handy. I don’t trouble anyone this way. Thank goodness. :)

airplanes.

2010-05-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

Airplanes - B.o.B ft. Hayley Williams
Dancing starts at 1:20.
Katee and Twitch. LOVE. :D

Hayley:
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

B.o.B:
Yeah, I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partying, the smashin' and crashin'
And all the glips and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you starin' at that phone in your lap
And you hopin' but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel in the sand
What would you wish for if you had one chance
So airplane, airplane sorry I'm late
I'm on my way so don't close that gate
If I don't make that, then I switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Hayley:
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

B.o.B:
Yeah, yeah
Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job
Before I got payed
Before it ever matter what I had in my bank
Yeah, back when I was tryin' to get a tip at Subway
And back when I was rappin' for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin' to stay relevant
I'm guessin' that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes, then maybe oh maybe I'd go back to the days
Before the politics that we called a rap game
And back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for Decatur what's up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish, to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Hayley:
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

B.o.B
I could really use a wish right now
I, I, I could really use a wish right now
Like, like, like shooting stars
I, I, I could, I could really use a wish right now
A wish, a wish right now.

theft.

2010-05-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

It’s never been so scary. I’ve been shaking for hours, trying to figure out exactly what happened, and how it happened and why. Even while writing this, I’m shaking all over. Tears welled up in my throat. I feel like crying but I don’t want mom to worry. I reacted fast enough, but not fast enough to stop him completely. I need a shoulder to cry on, someone to hug - anything.

It was raining. I was in the car, and I saw him walking towards the car. I did. I just didn’t think he’d punch the window and grab my mom’s bag. Even then, I keep thinking, if I pulled hard enough, I would have stopped him from taking the bag altogether. I was just so stoned at that time. And it was like every ounce of my energy had just left me. I did run after him. But my mom stopped me before I could grab him, that I nearly did. All I remember is that he was Malay, thin, black jacket, orange shirt, messy hair.

Everything is my fault. If I had just pulled the bag with as much energy as I slap people. If I just could remember more about the guy’s face. If I had just been able to react quicker and taken the bag even before he grabbed it. I know yes, there’s the possibility he might hit me with the same thing he used to bash the window. But I could have tried. I could have.

It’s times like these where I just thank God my mom is safe. I’m so grateful. I’m just so thankful for all the friends I have too. Even those I’ve just made. They’ve been such a big help, and I’d never known what would’ve happened if I didn’t meet them. I don’t want to think about it at all. I just don’t. Thanks Chung Wye. :)

I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry I couldn’t stop it from happening.

I keep telling everyone I’m alright. But after today, can I really be alright?

50 facts about me.

2010-05-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

1. I love hugs.

2. I am a Banana. I can't speak a single string of Chinese, even if I was forced to. I can repeat after someone says it though. I think.

3. I love purple.

4. I have known Sugeeta and Megan for 12 years. And they are both my bestest buddies in the whole world.

5. I used to play piano, do gymnastics and swim competitively. Now, I mostly just dance.

6. I hate people who pretend to know me when they have no clue what I've been through.

7. I was once a nerdy little kid with round glasses and buck teeth.

8. I lose my stationery periodically over the span of a term, and end up using Sugeeta's stationery alot.

9. I've always wanted to try out for a show like So You Think You Can Dance or something, just to see if I'm really as good as people say.

10. I am a really terrible self-critic. I never think I do a good enough job for anything, thus I'm a perfectionist.

11. I love food. I am an enormous eater. I just love food. :D

12. I hate onions, garlic, spring onions, ginger, bitter gourd, raddish, carrots and pumpkin.

13. I am slightly anemic.

14. I am literally a pain-magnet. My body was never built for sports. I have an injury in my right knee, left ankle and lower back.

15. The first celebrity guy I liked was Matt Bomer.

16. I sometimes cry myself to sleep.

17. I read and watch Naruto. Bite me.

18. I like photoshopping in my freetime.

19. I know how to play DOTA.

20. I have managed to master every single dance style I come across, except hip-hop.

21. I hated dancing as a child.

22. I can beat Reza up easily. :D

23. I have been in Cempaka all my life, but I moved to Tanarata International School in Year 11.

24. I did my final year of high-school in a class with two people - me and Reza.

25. I am very bad at prioritising.

26. I somehow feel very little pressure due to exams nowadays.

27. I wanted to grow up to be an artist when I was 8.

28. If I had a choice, I'd pick to minor in dance when I go to university and do my VetScience course.

29. I am a bit anti-social.

30. People say I look like bambi, but I fail to see the relationship.

31. Jeanine Mason, Chelsea Thedinga, Katee Shean and Shizu Yasuda have been my dance inspirations like since forever.

32. I have only started tweeting due to peer pressure.

33. I read fan-fiction, sometimes.

34. I cannot read through Pride and Prejudice. Don't curse me for not appreciating literature, its just too hard to read.

35. Sometimes, I think that I should be a man. I enjoy hitting people, fixing things and carrying stuff.

36. I like musicals. And I have only ever been in one Cempaka Musical Production; Witches of Oz.

37. I have a really high pain threshold.

38. But in any other case, I cannot stand needles being poked into me.

39. I hate going to the hospital and I cannot donate blood.

40. I nearly underwent surgery once for a cyst removal. I cried.

41. I've only been hospitalized once, when I had a terrible stomach ache during Cempaka's Debate competition.

42. I don't like taking medication.

43. I rarely take credit for anything I do. I'm always a background worker.

44. My all time favourite song is You and I Collide by Howie Day.

45. I think Lady Gaga is really creative, but weird.

46. I hate it when I have a crush on a guy best friend.

47. I wish I'd be more grateful for everything I have.

48. Sometimes I stare at the moon, and hope that the person I like is staring at it too.

49. I am easily jealous of people who are so much better at what I do than I am.

50. I'm competitive. And I hate that about myself.

mother's day.

2010-05-09T16:44:00.002+08:00

I just made mummy a card.

Of course I didn't come up with it on my own.
Here's my inspiration. :)

I'm a good copycat. :)

gloom.

2010-05-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

You know what it feels like when its the middle of the night and you get a text that just sends you into depression?
It hurts.
It hurts.

Did you really have to do that?
Do you really not care?

Forget it.
I guess sometimes, moving on is all I can do.
And that I shall.
Don't worry about me.
I'll be fine.
I'll always be fine.

the past.

2010-05-08T21:40:00.006+08:00

Since everyone is so emo lately, I decided to take a little walk down memory lane too.
it was .. nostalgic.

the times when cempaka swimming club was so integrated.
i miss it.

the days when i used to swim so fast.
This was when I managed to my first relay meet record by the way. XD

wining msss swimming 2008.
we got into the papers too! :D

messing during sports excel. :')

the two goons *out of a six others* in year 10.

year 10 @ cempaka.
:):):)

presidents cup 2008.
tania and i.

harimau's victory after 14 years of losing swimming gala.
we pwn yo. :D

cheer 2008. i was captain then.
we did awesome. :)

tawan cruises challenge '09.
I totally miss those times at the super awesome villa in Phuket.

dancing during class. :)

life saving course!
sunnies ftw!

phillea home visit.
haha. this was during role playing.
meet Ka Shing, Grumpy the dwarf. :P

us being crazy during orientation party.

LOVED IT.

Looking at everything makes me miss it even more.
All those times, all those memories, that just make me happy to still be alive.
It reminds me, that time waits for no one.

College will end soon, and I just fear I'll regret not doing the things I wanted to do, but didn't because I wasn't brave enough.
I won't let that happen.
:)

time after time;

elegance.

2010-05-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

I've been dancing and studying my ass off for the past few days, and have been trying my utmost best not to look half dead on campus. Unfortunately, that's just not working out for me. Damn.

I've been listening to loads of classics recently.
(and dancing to them)
They calm my poor nerves and destress me. :)

quote.

2010-05-03T20:55:00.004+08:00

My grandfather once told me that there are two kinds of people: those who do the work and those who take the credit. He told me to try to be in the first group; there was less competition there.

INDIRA GHANDI

xx

I saw this on BBC today, and I totally agree. And unfortunately, I too belong to the first group. I'm not sure, I was never really a person to stand up to take credit for something I did, even if I do grumble deep down about not receiving any. I'm always the person standing backstage, smiling and clapping along when someone praised the finished piece of work, crediting the leader of the project/group etc. Nope, I've never been really one to demand for credit. I'm more of the type who just wants to do what she wants to do. :D

I've always loved being a worker, I guess I just like doing work. :)

However, lately, it just hurts more and more this happens. But I guess, I'll always be the 'good worker', it is what I'm good at doing anyway.

explosions in the sky;

dear john.

2010-05-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

I finally watched it.
I don't care what everyone says, I loved it.
Haven't seen a good tearjerker like that in a REALLY long time.

Aside the fact that Channing Tatum is in this movie, I loved the soundtrack, the acting, the setting and everything else. I'm not a really big fan of Amanda Seyfried, but she really acted so well as Savannah.

Really sweet even if it was sad too. :)
*thumbs up!*

dear john;

bone bites.

2010-05-01T15:10:00.003+08:00

Dr. Sweets
Bones

Do you think he was killed for his guitar?
All we know is that he was killed WITH his guitar.
With a 57 Gibson Les Paul?
That's like whacking someone with the Mona Lisa.

Heeh. My favourite line from the whole episode.
I guess its funnier if you watch it though.

Bones; 5x19 - The Rocker in the Rinse Cycle

like a prayer.

2010-04-29T21:02:00.003+08:00

Like a Prayer

Refrain:
Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone.
I hear you call my name and it feels like
Home.

Chorus:
When you call my name, it's like a little
Prayer. I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you
there. In the midnight hour, I can feel your
Power. Just like a prayer, you know I'll take you there

I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing.
I have no choice, I hear your voice, feels like
Flying. I close my eyes, oh God, I think I'm
Falling, out of the sky. I close my eyes, Heaven
Help me.

Chorus:
When you call my name, it's like a little
Prayer. I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you
There. In the midnight hour, I can feel your
Power just like a prayer. You know I'll take
You there.

Like a child, you whisper softly to me. You're
In control just like a child, now I'm dancing.
It's like a dream, no end and no beginning.
You're here with me, it's like a dream. Let
The choir sing.

Chorus:
When you call my name, it's like a little
Prayer. I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you
There. In the midnight hour, I can feel your
Power, just like a prayer. You know I'll take
You there.

Chorus:
When you call my name, it's like a little
Prayer. I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you
There. In the midnight hour, I can feel your
Power just like a prayer. You know I'll take
You there.

Refrain:
Life is a mystery, everyone must stand alone.
I hear you call my name and it feels like
Home.

Bridge:
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me
There. Just like a muse to me , you are a
Mystery. Just like a dream, you are not what
You seem. Just like a prayer, no choice,
Your voice can take me there.

Intermediate:
Just like a prayer, I'll take you there. It's
Like a dream to me. Just like a prayer, I'll
Take you there. It's like a dream to me. Just
Like a prayer, I'll take you there. It's like
A dream to me. Just like a prayer, I'll take
You there. It's like a dream to me.

(Medley)

Bridge:
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me
There. Just like a muse to me, you are a
Mystery. Just like a dream, you are not what
You seem. Just like a prayer, no choice,
Your voice can take me there.

Intermediate:
Just like a prayer, I'll take you there. It's
Like a dream to me. Just like a prayer, I'll
Take you there. It's like a dream to me. Just
Like a prayer, I'll take you there. It's like
A dream to me. Just like a prayer, I'll take
You there. It's like a dream to me.

GLEE!

weekly ramble.

2010-04-24T20:58:00.004+08:00

I've just completely run out of blogging material. These days, I'm just so exhausted from the dancing, the college work, work experience and synchronized swimming. All the things I love doing. :) *except college work*

I'm sortof all excited for the Viennese Ball that's going to be held in Vienna next March. :) But but but, I have no dance partner. Which really stinks. And probably means I can't exactly go. :( It looks so fun though.

Any guy willing to be my partner? :)
*p.s: its expensive too. :S*

vitamin string quartet.

2010-04-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

:)

I had no idea they produced such awesome tributes to such awesome songs. And, their tributes, are so classically awesome, and obviously the BEST instrumentals I've ever heard. EVER.

Lovelovelove.

They don't get enough credit for their work. :(

busy bee.

2010-04-12T10:31:00.004+08:00

The week has been extremely hectic.
From exams, to ballet to church.
I practically was on coffee for the last three days. So so so tired.

But anyway, when I went to test the video projection for the 40th Anniversary of the Diocese of West Malaysia on Saturday morning, I saw a nice big space to dance on. And guess what? That, I did. :)

Aside that, I still need to choreograph my dance piece for the talent show and get my ballet exam stuff down. Sigh. And study.

I need to duplicate myself.

inspirations to dance.

2010-04-08T00:01:00.006+08:00

Well, I saw this on another dancer’s blog and that just made me think. Who were mine?

Jeanine Mason

Her modesty, her personality and her beautiful lines are just one of the few things that make her a role model for anyone. She just shows that you don’t need to be anaeroxic to dance brilliantly. During So You Think You Can Dance, being the dark horse, she still overcame every obstacle. She’s one of those people that just inspire you to try harder every time and to always keep improving.

Chelsea Thedinga

Don’t you just love dance that means something and isn’t just about high legs and who can turn more? After finding this on youtube, watching this just lifts me up from the pits. The choreography is brilliant, and aside her effortless dancing, Chelsea’s just such an inspiration. She’s so expressive, its uplifting. She taught me there was life through dance.

Shizu Yasuda

Watching her dance in person was just one of those things that left you in awe. Her body is just so expressive when she dances. She was the first to make me realize stories are present behind flawless dance routines. She’s the first Asian contemporary dancer that I just loved. :)

x0x0

little miss.

2010-04-06T19:55:00.002+08:00

Behold the tees I bought today. I was so upset I couldn't find reasonably priced ones for so long, and the it was in a tiny shop in Ikea selling them for RM 9.90 each.

JOY!

* You can sort of tell the little miss chatterbox is for my sister. :P *

from piles of papers;

2010-04-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

Exams have gone underway.
And thus the reign of Miss-Most-Careless-In-Class begins. I really am the most careless person ever. That just never changes. :S

As much as everyone’s so stressed about the exams, for some reason, I’m just not. It’s just like another test to me, and I just worry loads after an exam, but that passes as soon as the day is over. I’ve been studying a good load though; but I always lose my focus after half an hour or so. Sigh. So this, is what has been helping me focus. My top ten most played in my study playlist *no I don’t listen to hard rock while studying*. :)

You and I Collide - Howie Day
Unwell - Matchbox 20
Try - Asher Book
Smile - Uncle Kracker
Yellow - Coldplay
Fireflies - Owl City
For Good - Wicked Cast
Hey Soul Sister - Train
All We Are - Matt Nathanson
21 Guns - American Idiot Cast / Green Day

Slow with a nice melody and lyrics that isn’t too distracting or too boring. Just the thing to help keep me focused while stopping me from falling into slumber. :P

Probe sees 'Pac-man in the moon'

2010-03-31T20:53:00.001+08:00

This is cool. :P

The Cassini spacecraft in orbit around Saturn has caught an interesting new view of the tiny moon Mimas.

The probe measured temperature differences across the object's surface and produced a map that looks just like the 1980s Pac-Man video games icon.

Scientists are unsure why Mimas should display such variations but say it is probably related to the diversity of textures in the surface materials.

Some textures may retain heat better than others, they explain.

Mimas is about 400km (250 miles) across. It has a distinctive scar called Herschel Crater which has led many to draw comparisons with the "Death Star" from the Star Wars movies.

The Cassini team says the creation of the crater itself might have played a key role in changing conditions across extensive regions of the moon's surface.

Cassini is a joint venture between the US space agency (Nasa), the European Space Agency (Esa) and the Italian Space Agency (ASI).

Its mission was recently extended through to 2017.

Source: bbc.co.uk

missing pieces;

2010-03-29T07:13:00.002+08:00

People always ask if I'm in a relationship or whether I want one. I mean, its not like I haven’t had them before but at the moment, all I’m really looking for are friends that I can totally trust and rely on. I miss those days where I could completely rely on guys, that were so nice, and you just know they’re never going to make an abrupt move on you.

Those times where they would always tell the truth instead of lying, and tell me straight off if I have a crappy attitude or look off.

Those times where those guys were complete jokers and flirts, but made me smile all the time.

Those times when they would comfort me with senseless words, pull me in a hug and help me sleep at night when I was down, and know that they would never take advantage of me.

Those times where they’d just tell me honestly about what guys want and what do to.

Those times where they were just there when your girlfriends can’t help you.

It’s only taken three years for my world to completely flip around. Tania’s post totally made me realize that. I miss that loads. And I’m going to university sometime next year too. It’s too soon. How’d I know who to trust and who’d be there for me then besides my ever trusty girlfriends? I’m hoping that my girlfriends will be more than enough for me to get through the rest of my life.

*p.s: the new layout. bigger font. and i love it laaa. :P

smile.

2010-03-20T22:57:00.001+08:00

Smile
Uncle Kracker

This, is to all my friends out there. Love you all loads.
:)

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

smiley smiley smiley;

impatience.

2010-03-12T17:01:00.008+08:00

Sugeeta and I have a new found obsession over Ian Somerhalder (and aside that I like Paul Wesley about just as much). *Thank God he comes back on screens on the 25th!* And I just love White Collar obsessively now. AND I CAN'T WAIT TIL SEPTEMBER. :'(

This is totally one of my favourite pictures of Ian. ;)
-Vampire Diaries

A page of Seventeen. I know its cliche, but I do like the good guy in Vampire Diaries too. :P And this is the best vampire comparison ever. Seriously, Paul has the nicest bod. And I take scary over sparkly any day. Sorry Pattinson. :P
-Seventeen

Matt Bomer for anyone? He's so charismatic and charming. He's amazing, why can't he act in other movies or TV shows? :( He's fantastic in White Collar. A must watch CW show. MUST WATCH.

My tumblr has like THE best shots of them.
Well, all reblogged la. :P

Enjoy!

movies to look forward to.

2010-03-11T22:13:00.003+08:00

When White Collar hit their season finale, I was so depressed. ONLY 13 EPISODES. And it ends with a devastating cliffhanger. AHHHHH! And I don't know when it returns again. :( And Vampire Diaries doesn't return onto the television screen until 23rd March. Days before trials. :'( I felt so depressed.

Anyway, I did what Sugeeta would normally do (minus the soccernet part :P ).
Go on IMDb. And here, are the movies to look forward to in these few months.

1. Alice in Wonderland

Hands down a classic remake worth watching. I'm not a big fan of the classic tale, but Johnny Depp is a fantastic actor, so it should be fun. :) I'm waiting to see my Cheshire cat friend. Heehee. Love that toothy grin. :D And apart from the mystery and fantasy going on about it, it's got fantastic reviews so far, just what you'd expect from Tim Burton. Should be worth every Malaysian cent. However much that is worth. :P

2. Dear John

Nicholas Sparks + Channing Tatum + Amanda Seyfried.
I'm not a giant fan of Nicholas Sparks, and this book that he wrote wasn't a fantastic read either. Okay, I know movies adapted from books like these don't normally turn out very well, as the books are always much much much better, unless you have a fantastic director, like directors who directed HP1 and LOTR. But I'm a Channing Tatum fan, and I never miss out on his movies anyway. Amanda Seyfried; I'm not a huge fan. She's a REALLY good actor though. Sounds promising. :)

Synopsis:
Special Forces Army Sergeant John Tyree (Channing Tatum) is home on a two-week leave from Germany. He meets Savannah (Amanda Seyfried) after he dives into the ocean to retrieve Savannah's purse that had fallen off the pier. John is smitten by Savannah and falls in love at first sight. Savannah is a college student at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. She is on spring break and is helping build a house for Habitat for Humanity. John joins in with Savannah to help build the house. Along the way a budding romance occurs, and Savannah falls deeply in love with John. As she is about to go back to college, she promises to write John overseas during the next 12-months until he returns to her after completing his enlistment. Their love is put to the test when John reenlists after the 9/11 attack.

3. Remember Me

So, after his airbrushed abs on New Moon, I was totally turned off by Robert Pattinson. Actually, I was turned never turned on by him in the first place. He puts vampires to shame. *Vampire Diaries KICKS ASS* But according to reviews, he acted well in this movie! Very promising. And its a sweet chick flick. Whats not to like? :)

Synopsis:
In the romantic drama Remember Me, Robert Pattinson plays Tyler, a rebellious young man in New York City who has a strained relationship with his father (Pierce Brosnan) ever since tragedy separated their family. Tyler didn't think anyone could possibly understand what he was going through until the day he met Ally (Emilie de Ravin) through an unusual twist of fate. Love was the last thing on his mind, but as her spirit unexpectedly heals and inspires him, he begins to fall for her. Through their love, he begins to find happiness and meaning in his life. Soon, hidden secrets are revealed, tragedy lingers in the air, as the circumstances that brought them together threaten to tear them apart. Set in the summer of 2001, Remember Me is an unforgettable story about the power of love, the strength of family, and the importance of living passionately and treasuring every day of one's life.

4. Wall Street 2: Money Never Sleeps

I am a Shia LaBeouf fan. Loved him ever since his role in Transformers (and forever). I've never watched crime-economic related movies before too. And well a sequel to an Academy winning movie? Should be good good good!

Synopsis:
The film is set 23 years after the first film, in June 2008 and Gordon Gekko has just been released from prison. Despite his initial attempts to warn Wall Street of the forthcoming economic downturn and stock market crash, no one in the financial world believes him due to his conviction for financial crimes. Gekko decides to re-focus his attention on rebuilding his relationship with his estranged daughter, Winnie. Due to their time apart, and the fact that Winnie blames Gekko for her brother Rudy's suicide, she avoids any contact with him. At the same time, the mentor of young Wall Street trader Jacob unexpectedly dies, and Jacob suspects his hedge fund manager of being involved in the death. Jacob, who is Winnie's fiance, seeks revenge and agrees to Gekko's offer of help, in return for which Jacob agrees to help Gekko with Winnie.

Looking forward to this. HEEH. :)

And finally, a really weird fact.

Internet 'in running' for Nobel Peace Prize

Yeah, you didn't read wrong. Honestly.
Erh, congrats? :S

tumblr.

2010-03-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

Yes, I now have a tumblr account, to reblog cute stuff that I see all the time on that awesome site. ;)

http://izziedizzie.tumblr.com/

clicky on the link. :D

It's currently full of White Collar stuff.
Love Mozzie.
:P

a lesson to remember.

2010-03-08T18:08:00.003+08:00

In all my years of work, I've learnt three things.

Firstly, know when to keep your mouth shut.
Secondly, your boss is always right.
Thirdly, never simply state that there is a problem, find a solution for the problem.

My boss once told me this; " Never tell me that there is a problem with your work. Think, come up with a solution and then tell me what you need to solve the problem you encounter. I'd hire street cleaners if I knew that the work was easy enough. "

-Dad

And after rambling the whole day, I realize he's absolutely right. Logically, there's really nothing that can be done. I've already gotten in trouble today for my big mouth - well I was totally right, but still; the teacher's always right. And now, instead of complaining, that's practically useless, I should spend half that time just finding a solution. Complaints don't get anyone anywhere.

I'm just going to study my best, and hope that I'll get through my A levels.

the giant turtle i fed at the zoo. :)

your turn at that sir;

blank spaces.

2010-03-07T10:44:00.008+08:00

I've been staring at this screen for ages, thinking what to write. And I have no clue what to write or where to start. And then I remember why. I've been so unbelievably addicted to a few things I can't take my mind off.

1. Vampire Diaries

I started watching it a few weeks ago, and I totally love it. Paul Wesley and Ian Somerhalder. Yum. ;)

And for everyone that says, oh, its Twilight again. It's not like Twilight. Okay fine the character backgrounds are similar. Vampire guy and human girl. But honestly, Nina Dobrev has 5 different expressions, unlike Kristen Stewart's SINGLE stoic expression, and Paul Wesley isn't only sooo much hotter than Robert Pattinson, but also so much more of a better actor. Yes, he has manageable and nicer hair and muscles. Yes, he's got emotions. :O *gasp*

Watch it. Its a series that's totally worth your while. :D

2. Charice Pempengco

Since she appeared on Starking in Korea, and was invited by Ellen DeGeneres to sing on her show, and then Oprah featured her on her own show - pulling a few strings to arrange a meeting with Celine Dion. And she sang with Celine Dion at Mandela Bay before she was picked up by Grammy-winning David Foster. And she has two singles out now. Oh, did I mention she was Filipino? :O

Note to God

And, she has a single featuring Iyaz too.

Pyramid

I think she's fantasmic. :)
http://www.charicepempengco.com/

3. Dance

I went with Imma to my first ever latin ballroom class at college. I admit, I don't suck as bad as I thought I would. LMAO. The steps weren't extraordinarily hard, it was just getting the style. Thank goodness Imma was there to accompany me, he's good. :P It was a good class, and I can't wait for next week. It should be funfunfun.

Grade 8 exams are pulling up, and I can't afford to screw up. I seriously stink at free movement, and even more in Russian. I somehow manage to screw up every class. How terrible.

And I need a new level of flexibility for modern and jazz. Oh so inflexible.

4. White Collar

You probably would not have heard of this show, it's not on the regular tv in UK. :S But its a good show. TRUST ME. :D

Characters from L - R : Peter Burke, Elizabeth Burke, Neal Caffrey, Mozzie.
I love Mozzie. He's so so so funny. :P

The Story (from wikipedia):
Neal Caffrey (Matt Bomer) is a con-man who was captured after a three-year game of cat and mouse. With three months left while serving a four-year sentence, he escapes from a maximum security federal prison to find Kate, his ex-girlfriend. Peter Burke, the FBI agent who captured Caffrey, catches him again. This time, Caffrey gives Burke information about evidence in another case; however, this information comes with a price: Burke must have a meeting with Caffrey. At this meeting, Caffrey proposes a deal: he will help Burke catch other criminals as part of a work-release program. Burke agrees, after some hesitation. Within a day of being released from prison, Caffrey already lives in one of the most expensive houses in Manhattan, after persuading an elderly widow to rent him her guest room. After catching the elusive Dutchman, Caffrey has proven to Burke that he will help him, and that he will not try to escape again. However, at the same time, Caffrey is still looking for Kate, who he believes is in trouble.

It's honestly a good show. Watch it. :D

5. Heroes

This is one of the things that have completely pulled me away from homework and studies. I don't think its a fantastic show, but I just kept watching to see what would happen. I don't get the fact that they keep killing people and bringing them back to life afterwards; and I don't get the fact that there are sooooo many twists in the story, new family members every few episodes or so. Otherwise, its good. :P

I love, love, love, how Ando has a power and plays a main part in Season 3. :D

Ah, I don't lie. I watch it for Milo Ventimiglia.
And oh yeah, Hayden's a good actor too. :)
And I would die for her power. :D

And the rest of my life has just been sprayed with panic and contemplation. To continue with swimming or not? To bother being active in any other clubs or not? I don't feel like growing up anymore. :(

press play;

science centre - singapore.

2010-03-02T23:05:00.003+08:00

They have THE most fantastic science center.
I couldn't take any pictures of the Body Worlds exhibits cause we weren't allowed to. :(

jacob's ladder.

avian landscape.

strobe fountain!

group shot.

CNY.

2010-02-26T21:47:00.003+08:00

My dance people.

Yeah, I performed a fan dance, and yes FlyFm came to my campus to do the lion dance. I'm no pro, so they were fantastic to me. :D

Thanks to all my friends who totally cheered for me man. :P
Love you guys.

recovery.

2010-02-24T21:08:00.004+08:00

I went back to college today.
I'm feeling a little better I guess, but I was so tired the whole day.

From the studies to the dancing to the designing to the tests, it took up energy. :S

My nose hurts. :(

Oh, I did manage to finish the CNY card design.
And here it is. :D

Since Ka Shing complimented it, it must be good no? :P
References from stock imaging and the tiger was entirely done by me.
Do tell me whatchu guys think of it. :)
*click on it for a fantastic detailed full size :P *

sick.

2010-02-23T13:08:00.002+08:00

I hate catching my sister's bugs.
I always get sick after she does.
Stupid immune system. :S

A month until trials.
Totally should be studying my ass off. :)

Right now, I'm like this..

daily dose of dance.

2010-02-21T09:54:00.003+08:00

I will so be able to do all of that one day. :P
But first, I'm gonna get past my Grade 8 exams.
I don't like free movement. :(

My muscles are aching like crazy now after that hour of modern and synchro. Splitting for 5 minutes hurts people. It HURTS. :'(

try.

2010-02-19T21:23:00.003+08:00

Okay.
So I haven't blogged in ages.
Well, I just never found anything to blog about.

But, yes, I'll totally highlight the awesomeness of the Singapore Science Center I visited in Singapore. Including the fanatastic Body World's exhibit.

Oh, and I just watched Fame, the remake. Yes, it was crappy. It was just a show crammed with Performing Arts. But, I love this song. :)

Try
Asher Book

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me?

And this, is from the movie. :D

meh.

2010-02-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

SOON SENG.
YOU ARSE.

the hair.

2010-01-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

So brilliant. :)

Anyhow, I wanted to rebond my hair, but the hairdresser asked me to try it out first.
So I straightened it, temporarily.
What do you think?

long lists.

2010-01-23T00:06:00.003+08:00

The day I'd be able to do that. :O

Anyhow, I've added my foreground finally.

So now, I have less of something in my list of to-dos.
Physics tutorial and exercise on Thermodynamics.
Design board games poster.
Thinking Skills weekend homework.
To revise Chemistry AS - Organics and Inorganics.
~~Finish all WIP.~~
Do Bio Past Years : M/J 09 Variant 2 and O/N 08 Variant 1.
Revise Bio. (Respiration - Chemiosmosis, Kreb's Cycle and Oxidative Phosphorilation.)
Do Bio AS notes.

That's a long list no? :P
But not as long as the list of clubs I enrolled in during the ECA Drive today.
I practically just promoted the Editorial Board loads, and watched the mock debate by the Debate Club, and sat next to Ka Shing controlling the videos because all my other friends were promoting stuff. :O
HAHA.

Editorial Board -- Because I want to get better at yearbook editing. :D
Debate Club
Rotaract Club
Leo Club
Dance Club -- Latin. Cause street dancing's overrated. :P
Theater Club -- is having a production that I so wanna join!
Tree Hugger's Club
Film Club -- literally a club that watches movies together.
Sky Adventure Club

Hopefully I can get a post of two in some of them.
I.need.a.good.resume.

the worst.

2010-01-21T23:00:00.004+08:00

When the whole world seems against you.

You know, since the new term started, I've been so disturbed. I miss the quiet homey campus that was so full of people that I knew and talked to all the time. I miss the clean toilets. And oh, I miss the times where the hallways would be empty and just a hangout spot.

The campus is being invaded with people.

The toilets are so DIRTY.

Yeah. That so far, irritates me the most. Seriously, didn't your parents teach you how to use a toilet? Can't you just pull the flush handle after you're done? Dispose of your sanitary pads properly? Oh no. You can't. Because obviously you haven't been educated on matters of personal hygiene. You definitely would know otherwise. Whats so hard about wrapping sanitary pads and disposing of them, washing the seat if its dirty, and flushing the toilets that are full of your crap?

Yes, its a Malaysian thing, and everyone is disgusted by toilets. But COME ON. If you keep them clean, why would you be disgusted in the first place?

I can't stand people like this.
We.are.not.in.high.school.

2010-01-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Needs to get better time management skills.

the need to be nerdy.

2010-01-18T20:08:00.004+08:00

It's undoubtedly the New Year, and honestly, after Parent's Teachers Day, I've done some reflecting. I have seriously just been playing around all year ever since I got to college. I guess that meant I didn't focus on ANYTHING at all last year, except, enjoyment for myself. And I've just realised what a heck of a mistake it was. It sunk in even more when I began to research on all the universities available for vet science. Oh, the numbers are so few in UK, it isn't the slightest bit funny.

Gag me.
And yes, I've considered the 0.0001% chance of getting into Cambridge. I really want to try getting in though.

Even the university rankings for each one are so inaccurate, but overall, Cambridge, Liverpool and Edinburgh are pretty good. Glasgow too.

But I've decided, based on word from people.

1. University of Cambridge
2. University of Edinburgh
3. University of Nottingham
4. University of Bristol

Teehee. Subject to change of course. But I'm happy, for now. :)

Already tired.

2010-01-17T23:41:00.003+08:00

Ho-hum. My whole week was so packed, I barely had time to live and breathe myself. :P Okay, so maybe I’ve exaggerated a tad bit. But I’m not lying. :D

Thursday
Men-in-Tutus. Oh so funny. Seriously, there was this little Jap dude who was so fantastic and comedic at the same time. Honestly, I kept waiting for him to appear again, but he didn’t. :’( And oh, not forgetting the African guy who was so pretty. *this may sound totally wrong* But yeah. He was. Petite and pretty. :P Too bad I didn’t get to take pictures with both of them, but I did manage to take some with the rest! It was fantastic. I can’t remember so much applause and cheering and laughing at a ballet show - like ever.

Friday
Oh the whole day I was basically busy making the scrapbook for Ms. Nor who came for Parent’s Teacher’s Day on Saturday. She's leaving for Subang. :( Anyway, I got back home and immediately worked on it. I went for synchronized swimming in between too. I finally managed to put on my nose clip, which is an achievement I must say. :D Unfortunately, my nose hurts, and it feels as if I killed a few cells. Its so soft now. LOL. Going upside down is fun tho, as bad as I may be at it. :P

I got back at about 10, and started working on it again. I was so tired, and I kept making mistakes. But the point was, I managed to finish most of it that night. I slept at 4-5 am. :P

My fave page. :D

Saturday
I couldn’t even wake up to my alarm clock at 8 am. Pfft. Sugeeta called me at 9 am, and I woke up then. I quickly worked on to finish the cover of the scrapbook and then quickly went down to Kajang town to bind it. I was so exhausted, honestly. But I really liked the finished product, which only Youlin, Ji Su and Marco saw - the rest of the people left before I even got to Taylor’s College. Totally sad. But Ms. Nor liked it, and thats what counts. :)

I have never put so much effort in anything artsy before. Haha.

Front cover! :)

I went to meet my teachers with my mom. Good advice I must say. :) The teachers were mostly honest, but this conversation repeated itself like five times.

Mom
Me
Teacher

So what do you think is Isabelle’s weakness or weaknesses?
I think her weakness is just being careless..
*bites lip*
Yeah, she’s just careless. Improvement needed there.
Oh okay. Nothing else outstanding?
Nope.
So if she improved, she could score an A?
Most definitely. *nods*

Haha. I suck lah. At least they didn’t reveal my terrible attitude sometimes. Haha. :D After that, the usual dancing til night. I managed to catch American Idol at night. And this is the funniest ever..

Simon
Contestant
Randy

You have a fine voice, but you need to be more assertive.
I’m known to be a quiet guy and my friends say I’m too nice.
Oh here, I’ll help you out. Try this, “Simon, shut up!”
Okayy. Simon, shut up....please?

I was too tired to even text after that.

Sunday
I woke up at 7 again for synchro. I was yawning throughout. The set wasn’t too tiring. Only the 15 minutes of splits at the end nearly killed me. My thighs hurt, even now. Lol. And then I had church, and homework. And BAM! My weekend.

Bring it on Monday. :)

2010-01-13T23:00:00.003+08:00

Nyehehe.
Just when classes start again, look what I end up doing. :P

Today was such a drag. It was the first day back, and honestly, I wasn't really looking forward to it. I just dragged my feet to the doors as always. And the first thing I see are big clumps of Cempakans. They were everywhere - all those that used to be my senior in Damansara. It's weird being their senior now. :P Anyway, once I entered campus and met my friends, I sorta started feeling all happy and cheery again. It was the same cold campus, except the hallways were much more packed than usual. I hate my new classroom tho. >:(

And we had Physics as the first lesson. Gosh. It was boring. I think I may have died. On one side, Ji Su was scribbling Japanese, and on the other, Ka Shing was swearing like a madman, and me? I was getting super pissed cause I made oh-so-many careless mistakes. And oh, we met our new Chemistry teacher. She wasn't too bad as I thought she would have been. :) And the day went by. Our Malaysian Studies teacher didn't show up, so we had a free period.

Oh, did I forget to mention I'm somehow treasurer now? Sigh.

Photoshopping is my only way of release. :'(

through my phone.

2010-01-12T14:26:00.006+08:00

Just clearing up my phone and its "many" pictures.

Enjoy then!

1. My dog, Biscuit, when I just got her.
2. Nick, from church camp. :)
3. The kitty for adoption at the vet that day!
4. Daryl and the kitty at the vet.
5. Ahyee Margaret eating sate today!
6. The trash left, after we ate the sate. :D :D

It's been so long since I had sate, and when I had 12 sticks this afternoon, it was bliss. You gotta love Kajang sate. Best like EVER.

I got up at eight. Walked around Country Heights with my aunt. Started browsing Deviantart. Went to CzipLee to get school supplies. Bought pens. Bought a springy hairband. Ate sate at Kajang town. Took a shot at background drawing on Photoshop. Went to Bukit Jalil to train. Went for ballet. Got scolded. Came home. Continued attempt at background drawing. Ate dinner. Read some weird manga. Editing blog.

There, a comprehensive summary of my day. :)

Miaw
Men in Tutus Booking Person
Me

What is your teacher's name?
Hsien Ho.
Spelling?
H for Holland. S for Singapore. I for..
Ireland!
I for ice-cream, E-N.

Haha. Made my day man.

2010-01-12T00:44:00.003+08:00

You know you have a good friend, when they go through lengths to get you to study. :)

With friends like these, who needs parents? :P

waiting.

2010-01-11T14:15:00.007+08:00

Yes, I just do.

Dear brain,

Why can't you just focus and study all the subjects that you need to? Just try focusing for once, get your thoughts off the phone, the computer and the I-Pod. Stop waiting for something to happen on facebook. You are so unproductive, it isn't even funny. -.-

Why can't you not get distracted by random thoughts or random people and things that pop in and out all the time. Try being sane for a bit will you brain? For me? :D

Love, me.

College starts in a matter of days, and here I am still sitting down and not opening a book to study. I know I have to, but I'm just not. GR.

I've just finished cleaning up my closet. I need more space.
More space for everything. :)

clicky!
Coldplay and TobiDei.
My two favourite things. :)

2010-01-10T10:05:00.000+08:00

Tablet boredom.
Oh man, what's it gonnuh take to get into uni?

The LXD.

2010-01-09T21:35:00.003+08:00

Amazing dancing.
I love this stuff.
Oh Harry Shum. :)

What a "me" thing to do. haha!

unproductive.

2010-01-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

Zane
Me

Go first! You can swim faster than me in your sleep, so you might as well do it when you're awake.
Noo, I'd be snoring too much to care.

Oh boys.
They're all the same.

Fen's the bomb. :)

oh college starts soon. :)

2010-01-05T08:55:00.004+08:00

Haha.
Guess who?

I cannot believe this was me.
I was so innocent last time. :P

Look what 2010 has done to me already.
Yes, I start off the first week by being bad.

I miss Lina's sarcasm.
I miss Sugeeta's uber smartness.
I miss Esther's expression when she'd see him.
I miss Youlin's logic.
I miss Ka Shing's laugh (as scary as it is).
I miss Ka Mun's jolliness.
I miss Cherilyn's humour.
I miss everyone basically.
*sobsobsob*

I don't miss the work load tho. :P

Oh, I found this in someone's blog.
Might as well do it. I'm dead bored.

I confess in 2009 I have...

(x) stayed single for the whole year << I am so proud of this. :')
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else’s heart
(x) had a stalker
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
( ) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
( ) met one of your idols
( ) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
( ) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
( ) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
( ) had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
( ) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

Teehee.

JOANNE, WHEN ARE YOU MOVING TO TUMBLR WOMAN?

2010-01-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't blogged in forever.
I'm just too lazy.
Oh well.

Christmas.

2009-12-25T22:11:00.001+08:00

I’m proud to say I managed to stay awake throughout the Christmas service this year. It’s like my first time. And I feel so so so so so so terrible for it. :( But still, the first Christmas message that I stayed awake through is Cheng Jin’s - during the Cempaka Damansara CF at Bangsar Gospel Centre. :P

Now it’s Christmas morning, and I’m on the way to Singapore now, on some road. And here’s the view. Lovely loverly trees.

And today, I just want to wish everyone a Blessed Christmas. Today, I hope all of us will get our fair share of presents, cards, wishes and most of all, blessings from God. Today is the day that man was reconciled with God, so be happy and enjoy it!

And just for the record, I can complete a Rubix cube now. -But it takes a while- After learning from Youtube. Haha. I’m so lame. But yes, here’s one all completed. :D

Thank you everyone for all your wishes and presents. I really appreciate it all. :D

p.s: I’m going for Youth Fellowship on the 2nd; with sate, as a request from someone. ;)
p.s.s: more pictures up tomorrow. there's plenty. :)

christmas eve.

2009-12-24T10:25:00.002+08:00

Hey people.
Well, it's the time of the year isn't it?

I'm gonnuh try my hand at baking, although I've never done it before. AHAHA.

always midnight;

the christmas season.

2009-12-22T23:55:00.003+08:00

It's the Christmas Season again, and everyone's pumped and all semangat-ed for it. :)

This is how you SHOULD be like..

..and, this is how you SHOULDN'T be like.

Jocelyn, you little demanding human. :P

..and this is how I AM like..

I have barely started wrapping everything, and stuff.
I'm a terrible last minute person lah.
But I'll get everything done. Hopefully.
*needstoshopneedstoshopneedstoshop*

Jesus is the reason for the season;

A fir tree in a lung?

2009-12-21T23:20:00.004+08:00

Click here. For more info. :)

It's pretty weird.
Haha.

xx

I'm so tired.

For the past few days, I've been at BGC's Youth Camp. I met so many awesome people, and its kinda sad it had to end, just when I was getting to know everyone too. Everyone was all so nice, so welcoming, encouraging and really energetic. I admit, at first, I was all scared and shy because I didn't know anyone. I'm really terrible at socializing, but I sort of met everyone in the end. And now, I've got a little message from everyone to remember them by. Nyehehehe. (Nicholas is like my permanent screensaver since I have no idea how to remove it from my phone. :P ) In the end it was all fun, and I don't regret going.

I did NOT expect to see Wai Cheong there. Haha. That was the kicker.

The camp was fun. Like FUN. The games were really different and extra-ordinary, all courtesy of Jason. Haha. I think the funniest had to be the gargling while singing a song, while the rest of your team had to guess what song it was. The best? The Amazing Race. From Bangsar to Genting, it was really fun, except eating that 2 kgs of sweet potato. That wasn't cool. :P Even if our team was pathetic at Geography, we managed to get like 8th out of 14 teams, I think. And that, is the result of teamwork. Heehee. Judah was a great team leader.

Throughout the course of the camp, I learnt so much, and realised just how little and how unfaithful I was. The message that was shared was totally life changing - and I've learnt that no matter what, God is and will always be a priority and only he can help us truly grow. It made me realise how important God's sacrifice of his Son, our Saviour was; and where we'd be without it. Praising Him everyday was like a joy, and for once I think, I finally meant the words I said. And to think I nearly rejected Megan's offer of coming to camp too. Thank God I didn't. :)

The whole camp was like taking a breath of fresh air. Something I haven't had in a while. And, after a great friend of mine accepted Christ, I've been smiling non-stop and just been so happy for her. I love you woman. :)

The punchline?

Church camp was superbly awesome and tiring. :)

Megan said that. Dearest Megs, you win the joke of the ~~day~~ YEAR.
Heehee.

*p.s: the answer is, the Bible. :)
p.s.s: pictures will be up soon. :D

sick again. :(

2009-12-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

I've spent half a day packing for a church camp.
I think I'm sick again.
I pray I'll get through Megan's church camp tomorrow.

Poo-ey. And I just got better yesterday too.
Sorethroatsorethroatsorethroat.

:(

Preeeetttyy no?
I like dance lines. :D :D

*sneeze*
I guess its back to bed for me.
UGH.

18th floor balcony.

2009-12-16T00:12:00.004+08:00

This song.
I totally love it.

The holidays are so boring.
It's filled with days of me being a Couch Potato.
It's not even blog-worthy.
SIGHH.

Going off to camp in a few days.
Can't wait to see Fen and all.

my favourite verses.

2009-12-13T01:20:00.007+08:00

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

Why can't you see this boat is sinking
Let's go down to the water's edge
And we can cast away those doubts
Some things are better left unsaid
But they still turn me inside out
Turning inside out turning inside out

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

Cause I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance

Give me
Just one part of you to cling to
And keep me
Everywhere you are
It's just enough to steal my heart and run
And fade out with the falling sun

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

kudos to all those who can correctly guess all the songs there. :P

gosh.
i am bored.
and sickly pale.

*wants to go watch Avatar. GR.

if they say...

2009-12-09T16:45:00.004+08:00

...Pictures speak a thousand words, then what do these mean?

xxx
Well, there's no catch.
I just linked all the pictures that would sort of, maybe reflect me right now. :)

Actually, during these holidays, i'm in the mood to try new things.
Things I've never done before.
try me. :)

Cookie Monster, because, he cares. :D

sicksicksick.

2009-12-07T11:08:00.005+08:00

I could barely get off bed today, and yesterday was full of tissues, tears and throbbing head pains. The only reason I'm blogging is to move my fingers so they don't get as numb as they did yesterday. Good grief.

Apparently, I've caught my stupid sister's viral flu, and its been taking a terrible toll on me. My head has probably been hurting for freaking ages as it is, and even at the mall yesterday, it was so hard to watch New Moon in peace.

(Besides the fact the movie was long, it was like a million times better than Twilight, and Taylor Launter was so unbelievably hot. Those abs, ZOMG. And screw Malaysian cinemas for cutting off the kissing scene AGAIN. I swear, I was soo upset. Anyway, I'm totally for team Werewolves now. Wayyyy too hot. I loved it basically, but I wish it was much much shorter. But then again, I ain't a massive fan, so I'm okay with that. Yes, I think I almost peed when Jacob took off his shirt. :P)

I cannot ever sit next to Lina or Sugeeta in the theaters again. They talk LOADS. Josephine was the only one that kept me sane. And Ka Shing I guess, for not talking. :D Then after the movie, we went to Nandos. By then, my arms were already numbing up, and I could barely move. And when I got back, I tried watching Gossip Girl to take my mind off the pain, obviously that didn't work. And I ended up crying and crying in pain in my room.

Thankfully friends like Lina, Sugee and Ka Shing kicked in. In my moment of pain and deliriousness, I honestly wanted to just hit my head against the wall so hard so that I would faint and not feel anything. Its times like these when I really needed them badly because my parents and grandpa were out at a wedding. And I couldn't think to save my life. Hearing their voices and advice totally comforted me loads. And I love them so. Thanks so much guys. I love you all to bits. And thanks to my sister, who helped loads. Loads. I don't hatechu as much now kayy?

I'm honestly sorry I had to bother you guys, but I'm glad I know there are people I can always fall back on.

Okay, now I'm going to vomit.
Try not talking to me in the meantime. You won't be able to hear me talk anyway. Throat doesn't really allow that.
xoxo

world's most careless.

2009-12-03T16:35:00.002+08:00

I should get an award for the world's most careless human being.
Seriously.
I misread every darn thing in the exam paper.
Slap me.

I lost like a billion marks just based on reading the question wrongly.
Good grief.
And I bet I'm the only one. -.-

You know. I dance alot.
Like randomly, to get my blood flowing when I'm studying.
A turn and a stretch and a bend.
HAHA. I'm weird.
:P

rolling on a river;

can't wait til its all over.

2009-12-01T19:25:00.005+08:00

Day one of exams are over.
Only another 3 days to go. :P
I can totally do this. *motivates self*
Let's not talk about Thinking Skills.

"That was the stupidest paper I've ever done"
By: i'm-so-not-going-to-write-the-person's-name-here-in-case-of-prowling-teachers

I've just done a shitload of Chemistry past years.
I missed ballet. :(
Hopefully it'll be enough to get an A tomorrow.
Sho sho sho sho sho sho sho worried.

The good bit is, after doing all that, I feel loads more confident.
Now, there's just Math left.
Must not screw up. Must not screw up. Must not screw up.

Haha. I love this. Like massive. :D
stupidchemistrystupidchemistrystupidchemistry.

Now, I'm going to do some Math.
Heehee.

[edit]
Looking through my old old old posts, I found this. :P

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

haha. I'm laughing at how true this is.
Oh my goodness Isabelle, snap out of it.

things that make me smile.

2009-11-30T16:49:00.005+08:00

I was looking through all my old photos to relieve stress. And, it did. :)

doggie with daddie.

porcupine. :D

hana and me. prefects camp.

jazz class. back then.

edited by leanne. SICC 09.

picnik.com :)

michelle! I hate you for going to CILC. :(

ten terra. the terror. :)tania lee. she's so accomplished and shiz. :D
charis. my lab budddyyy!
by michelle. talented no?

This all makes me realise what a great past I had.
:)

take a bow;

tired of studying.

2009-11-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

I'm so bored of studying honestly.
I know I haven't studied much with my terrible productivity rate, but seriously I'm really bored of it.
Gosh, why can't I do something I like that will be just as good as studying? :S

Stare at this for a while.
It'll make your day.

what sarah said;

stress levels.

2009-11-29T10:44:00.001+08:00

So I’m currently sitting in my dad’s car listening to Swing, Swing, Swing by AAR on my I-Tunes. He’s pumping petrol at Shell. My pencil ran out of lead, I can’t do anymore Physics past years now. Grh. Anyhow, my whole Saturday, was dedicated to Physics. Kinematics, Young’s Modulus, Newton, Diffraction Gratings, Momentum and everything else along those lines. Mr Lim better give me an A for the Semester exams. :P

Anyway, for everyone of my friends wondering what AS in A Levels are like, I’ll tell you guys, it ain’t easy. That’s coming from someone who went straight into the programme after 2 weeks of holidays after IGCSE (everything’s supposed to be still fresh in my mind) and finished the syllabus in about 3-4 months.

If anything was hard, it was Chemistry. Considering it was never my subject, and there was a whole block of stuff to cover, it was REALLY hard. Not kidding. But if you’re good at Chemistry, it won’t be.

Biology was alright, maybe because I have a knack for Biology. Loads of memorizing, loads of application, NOTHING is straight-forward. Questions are worth many marks, and its hard to score in tests. But, I like it, *unlike some people* .

Physics was alright. No I’m not fantastic at it. I just started getting better in this after much help from like Youlin, Ka Shing, Sugeeta and Ji Su. :) I guess for Physics, I can’t give a good opinion, because I never paid attention in Physics till like Chapter 8? :P

Math, was basically Additional Maths in O-Levels with a slightly higher difficulty, so, that wasn’t so bad.

There we go. For all you people’s who have been asking me how its been like. Honestly, entering A Levels, expect a lot of degrading, its not the same as high school. Different people, different teaching methods, and different environment. That’s certain at least. :)

Oh, COME TO TAYLORS. ;D